I am not the pain

“It always felt like I couldn’t do enough drugs. I felt like I was on an operating table, like, ‘Hello! I’m still awake!’ I knew I needed something other than drugs to deflect the feelings that didn’t feel good, or pain. And that came in the form of consciousness. Of adding another element to the scenario. If there was pain, if there was too much feeling, I had to add another element. And that wasn’t a superficial element like drugs. It had to be a consciousness of who I am. I am not the pain. When I meditate, I say, ‘I am not my feelings. I am the awareness of my feelings.’ Immediately, there is a separation. Immediately, I can observe it and at that moment, I have a choice.”

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